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I think it is impossible to find love when you're fat. You maybe can have a few extra pounds and be loved, but no man wants to touch a fat girl. It's a difficult reality to accept. Maybe if you meet a guy and then you gain weight, then you can make it work because the weight can be seen as temporary. But when someone meets a fat person, it's all they know. When fat girls go to bars with pretty friends, they are looked through, talked over, danced around. When fat girls run into an attractive men who they make eye contact with, the men look embarrassed. Like, woops, I looked at her, but she's really fat. For someone fat to be loved, you have to prove yourself and then some. A lot of some. You have to have the perfect makeup, the perfect come back, the perfect opinion. Your personality has a challenging task. It must outweigh your fat. When humans touch humans, they do not want to feel folds. They do not want a mate who huffs and puffs after walking up a couple flights of stairs. They do not want someone whose silhouette looks like various lumps, curves, and bulges. When fat people are liked, it is despite their fat. It is not an asset, but a large, negative variable, which most people don't give the chance to prove unimportant. No one wants a fat girl, because fat is equated, ironically, as less than. Less than human, less than women. No one wants a fat girlfriend. And I want to make it all just disappear, because I don't want to be looked over. I don't want it to be disgusting if I want to have sex. I don't want to be a disturbing fetish, and I don't want to be unwanted in every physical sense of the word. I want to shed the fat, and be at equal playing ground. I want people to see me for me, as I am, and what I want to be. I want men to know me, and not their judgments about me. Because it is the human nature to judge. And I don't want to be rejected just because no one wants a fat girl. |